The Nuts Rallies..... :) :) :)

The Nuts Rallies :-) what a relief I can breathe...What a rollercoaster of a couple of weeks. Thankfully the Vets have found the right combination of  drugs for Nuts that have eased his pain and most importantly to allow him to enjoy the garden, eating, watching the guys do their agility and camping. He a bit wobbly and uncoordinated and needs help here and there, but he is dealing with it well. And as long as he happy, then that is all that matters.

Nuts Wynne 2010 got the ball good and proper

The scariness of it all, has meant I succumbed to a sickness bug and then spent virtually 48 hours in bed or in the bathroom. I may have got it anyway, but I don't think the emotional rollercoaster helped. But thankfully Nuts has bounced back and I feel that I can breathe....

But few weekends at home now - a chance to start exploring my research proposal. Only one more year of studying to do :-) and then I will be back to agility proper. 

p.s this photo of Nuts always makes me chuckle, you can see the sheer determination that his football is not going anywhere. He has it good and proper.

Nuts and the relentless march of time

It seems that I lurch from happiness to sadness, like a light switch being flicked on and off. The exhilaration of running Zev, the excitement of Marc and Mister Bigs making the Great Britain Team is more recently always tempered by the relentless march of time and its effects on Nuts.

After my bravado about how well Nuts has been doing ...The Nuts Strikes 12 - Blog Posting and Puppiesfrom-hunting-to-waiting-game - blog posting  time decides to march on....and I am like King Canute trying to hold back the tide, I have tried and failed abysmally to stall the march of time. 

As Nutsey's legs wobble and he looks at me in confusion, my emotions too wobble. I feel as if I need the equivalent of AA an anonymous meeting, where we who love can wail at the injustice of it all. But as I type this, I realise that the biggest injustice would have been never to have had the pleasure of Nutsey being by my side.

So I as hundreds and thousands of others will try to ensure that what time we have is special, I have warned Marc that if we can't get him up the stairs at home then we will have to sleep downstairs. The puppy plans may go on hold for a little while.

It has been a shock the deterioration in less than one week from enjoying his walks and bimbling about, to walks, chairs and stairs being too much. Hence the emotional post as today's walk was surreal and empty with me and Zev so very lost without Nuts with us.  Along with the guilt of leaving him at home, as in Nutsey's mind, he can still do the walks. Rivi is fortunately in her own Rivioli world and seemingly oblivious to the changes occurring.

The time is to indulge and not think about tomorrow, but enjoy the precious bitter sweetness of the todays......

Smile....it's agility time

This photo taken at Hinckley 2012 by Watts Photography and now I understand why people say I am a smiler. I even manage to smile whilst running, I was not even aware that I did :)

Christine & Rivi by Watts Photography

Rivi is still very much a work in progress in agility, the winter training has paid off in terms of much improved confidence, but it is a fragile thing. Terrifically we have had two wins and several places this year already.

Rivi at Hinckley 2012  - Watts Photography

I have a quiet belief, that one day all my efforts will pay off and our day will come, in the meantime I have the satisfaction of
- knowing how much we have improved as a partnership
- the pleasure of watching her confidence return
- Rivi being a Happyoli :)

Zevman @ Hinckley 2012

Zev June 2012

I was so looking forward to this weekend, it was my first weekend free of assignments. However I was not in a good head space...there is still a couple of things that I need to resolve and whilst they can be resolvable in time, they just cannot be resolved as quickly as I want them to. Which is frustrating...and despite me telling my mind to dismiss the thoughts...they just kept popping back up..not 'doubting thomas' thoughts just frustration at a situation that is taking time to resolve.

I crashed the champ jumping, Zev was annoyed and we were just so out of tune, out of sync my wobbly day just got wobblier.  Still onwards and forwards, headspace getting better and Monday was tournament day and we came 4th in the jumping and 1st in the Agility and that meant we won the  medium tournament on the day. I was so surprised and obviously so very pleased.

Zev has such heart in what ever he does whether it is playing, agilitying or even telling me his opinion on things, which he certainly did on Saturday!

How lucky am I....to have such a terrific sheltie?